Surprise, Bitter-Sweet Blessing

Here is a copy of an email I sent to a friend recently. It explains everything:)
Ok, here goes. I was in California from November 3-18. On the 4th I got such excruciating pain in my lower abdomen I really thought I was dying, Alyssa. I was in Santa Barbara at the time. The house on the ranch is pretty big and I was alone on the other side...had to crawl all the way across the house to get to Christine's room (Donnie's dad's girlfriend who helped me take care of grandma the last few months of her life) and bang on her door. It was about 1:30am. The pain subsided and I finally went back to sleep. It was still happening on the 6th when I got a phone call from Kay because we were planning on spending some time together while I was in Cali. I told her what was happening and she prayed over me. It was amazing because she prayed in the Spirit that God would fill my body with life. The next day I went to the Emergency Room and found out that I was barely...BARELY pregnant! (I must have conceived a week or so before leaving) After calling Donnie (of course) and the appropriate family members I called Kay. She was like, "WHOA!" and told me that after she prayed for me she had this crazy, deep sense that God had just done something amazing. After we had prayed the day before we sat on the phone completely silent together just soaking it up for a few minutes. God had done something awesome!
Anyway, the doctors were really worried that I had an ectopic pregnancy and was bleeding internally but since I was so early they couldn't find the baby on the ultrasound. They sent me home with pain medication and told me to go to my doctor or go back to the ER for more bloodwork to see if the pregnancy was advancing, or had died. I went to Mercy Southwest Emergency Room in Bakersfield two days later, still having the pain but they still couldn't find the baby on the ultrasound. I was like...WHAT?! My blood levels, however, showed that my pregnancy was viable and growing. So, there was a baby, but we couldn't find it! lol I was still having the pain and thought for sure I was dying. I prayed and prayed and prayed for God to have His way and to give me the strength to endure the trial. I was so amazed at the complete saturation of His presence I experienced when it was all happening and I was sure that He was working miracles. The next few days I continued to have the pain, but then had a new symptom. Hope not to gross you out, but I was starting to pee blood. And it HURT! lol Back to the ER. Still couldn't find my baby, but my pregnancy hormone had gone from 60 to 720 by then, so that baby was growin' away! They put me on antibiotics and said I had a horrible bladder infection. (I'm convinced I was passing a series of kidney stones, but that's just me:) ) What a crazy experience. The kicker?! Two weeks before I left for California God showed me in my heart in the way only He can that something was going to happen on this trip. (I immediately assumed my return flight was going to crash into a million pieces. I have problems lol) I really thought I was going to die in California somehow, so you could imagine when I was starting to have the pain where my mind went. I was ok with it, but I think no matter what there's always this sense of nervousness and frailty when it comes to our mortality. It was scary, but Jesus was with me the whole time. NEVER thought I was going to find out I was pregnant. When I came home I immediately scheduled a dr apt and got an ultra sound and there was my baby...in the right spot, with a heart beat! I cried. Then, our last appointment we got to hear the heart beat. I am so thankful to God for it all. Throughout the whole thing in Cali it was pretty much assumed that I was going to lose the baby, or had already lost it....but one night when I was worshipping the Lord I had a vision of a nurse handing me a baby all bundled up. I was so thankful! My very own glow worm! lol I don't know what will happen and I am still in a very risky state of pregnancy, but I trust the Lord that no matter what happens that this baby belongs to Him alone. He will do with His child what He will, and I am confident it will be good.